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So This is My Future in Your..I know you envisioned a wedding cake,
a beautiful girl with my face,
walking down an aisle of our
best friends and family,
but I have to admit,

My future is a coffin.
My future is a time bomb
My future is dead.

I know you image a life by my side,
a few beautiful kids to raise
with the good girl you think I am,
and you want to die in my arms,
but I have to admit,

My future is a bottle of pills.
My future is almost at it's end.
My future is dead.

I know you think of me every single day,
as the girl who's heart you will have,
the one, your true love for
a life time, for forever and always
but I have to admit

My future is not

VanityThyNameIs...The Years Pass Slowly From This Side Of The Glass
I've Watched You Grow, I've Seen You Change
I Can't Get Close, Can't Reach Out To Hold You
I Am Powerless To Stop You Fading Away

I Am You, Trapped In This Form
Back In The Time When Life Was Good
Now I Suffer, Watching Your Pain
Unable To Show You What Life Means

I Scream So Loud, So Shrill, So Clear
To Break Down The Glass Between Us
I Hammer My Fists Against The Pane
But I'm A Memory, I Just Disappear

Come Back To Me, Be Happy Again
Smile The Way You Used To
Open Your Heart, Let Free Your Emotions
Opens Your Eyes, See The Beauty

My Fingers Pressed To The Glass
I Watch You F

The Future Does Not Scare Me..There will come a day
when the Sun explodes
and the Moon implodes.
The world will die
and we will be dust,
but as long as I get
to die by your side,
I will not be afraid.

So You Want to be a Model?Your smile falls on deaf ears
and you laugh goes nowhere,
just an echo inside your head.
You call yourself beautiful
with nothing but vanity.
Hunny, you're a nameless body
used to make young boys horny,
and old men hungry for youth.

You throw up every bite you take
and claim you work for your body,
that's just a lie no one buys except
maybe your daddy's credit cards
for plastic breast and nose jobs.
Sweetie, you're a rehab trip in the making,
sipping rum and diet coke
while snorting the other kind.

You'll age or die trying not too,
and your beauty will fade,
just like your washed step mom.
Some other girl will replace you

BrokenSoulThe Most Effective Barrier To Emotions
Is The Smile Forced Upon A Face.
Hiding Behind It All The Sorrow
Past Memories Have Carved.
A Tear Can Be Erased
As Quickly As It's Formed.
A Hand Swiped Across The Eyes
And All Sadness Is Lost In An Instant.
Only The Soul Can Hold All Emotion
But Even It Has A Limit Before It Breaks.

Everything Will Be FineI build myself a mountain
and complain when I can't
climb to the top to see the view.
This is the life I've made,
never pleased until I am,
I know I'm confusing,
but my brain makes no sense
and I like it this way.

When I cry it's like acid rain,
when I laugh it's like a storm
but I'm going to be fine.

I tied a bow with my shoe laces
while the next day I'm practicing
making knots on ropes to hang myself with.
This is never enough until it is.
Yeah, you'll never understand me
and I don't want you to
just accept me and let me be.

When I scream it's like a hurricane,
when I smile it's like a blinding light,
but I promise you,

Why I Refuse MassI don't dare ask for a hero.
Out of everything in the world,
someone saving me is last on the list,
because I know what it would take.
I'm too full of myself to give thanks,
and I'm too broken to kneel and pray.

I don't dare plead for forgiveness.
Out of everything I could do in my life
I would never take back those days,
because I know I got here by my free will.
I'm too sick to replace the memories
for happiness and unscarred wrist.
I'm too wise to try to deny the fact
I belong in a pile of broken glass.

I don't dare accept a thing from God.
Out of every fairy tale I could believe in,
I would never give myself the hope of he

The Pre Suicide LetterYou mention how a real suicidal person
wouldn't tell anyone, they would just do it,
and I look away stare at the wall and
hope you don't notice how much I want
the conversation to go somewhere else.

I know by how you talk that you really do
believe I'm past that, you think it was
just some silly phrase, like it was for you.
I let you go on thinking that's all it was,
I don't want you to know it was more than that,
I will never let you know, I'm not past it.

I wonder if I ever lose my will to carry on,
if I grabbed the rope and tied the noose,
if I bought a gun and held it to my head,
if I swallowed more pills than before,
would

Love SongIf I could make you fall in love with a song
If I could capture every twitch and tingle of the heart
Every flutter of your eyelids and tremble of your lips
Every blushing cheek, every tear of joy
And capture every fantasy in your head and make it real

Then I'd write a song to your every breath
I'd write a song every time you blink
I'd write a song when you wake up
And I'd sing every song to you before you go to sleep

I would write every song left to be written
Just to see you fall in love with me
Over and over again

not yetWe used to joke around
and i used to tell you
that my sanity
was a lost cause
When all i was thinking
was that i was
crazy in love
with everything about you

But the thought of losing you
feels like any sanity
i ever had
being ripped away
And i realize the truth
that i don't think
i could stay me
without you

And as i sit alone
i hate not knowing
how you are
and what you're thinking
As i stare ahead
at the silent glowing screen
i pray that
this isn't over yet

And Then There Were The LiesAnd then there were the lies;
Those smiling lies that I loved so much.
Comforting, warm, but they left me alone,
More alone than I've ever been—
Why did I believe you? I was fine.
I was totally fine and you came and fucked me up.
You have to know I'll still be glad to call you my friend,
With fake laughs and pleasantries to hide the doubt.
I'll stare at you with a look in my eyes, neither kind nor curious.
Though, I'm constantly hurting;
My heart, my heart, crumbling smaller
Until the walls are all that are left.

Just Two KidsWe fell in love
just two kids
lost in the moment
now we're confused
on why our feelings
are so far apart

I thought I loved him
he thought he loved me
but we were wrong
just two kids
lost in the moment
now we're confused

Gravity still pulls
us together
like we were made
for each other
but not we're confused
just two kids
lost in the moment

Oh so young
and careless
helpless as to what
would come out of our lust
and now we're stuck
together like glue
not sure where to go

Our hands holding onto
that small grain of sand
that was that summer
that night we found
each other under that tree
so lone

I am....I'm the daisies
that line the highway.
I'm the dying rose
alone in the waterless vase.

I'm on top of the world,
nothing can touch me.
I'm underneath the ground,
burning in my own hell.

I'm the cool,refreshing water
in the pool on a hot summer's day.
I'm the dirty water going
down the drain after all the dishes
have been cleaned and put away.

I'm the icecream truck,
giving away free samples.
I'm the bank van
being robbed.

I'm the saint,
sitting on the throne.
I'm the sinner,
hanging from a rope.

I'm the virgin queen,
in a robe of gold.
I'm the local whore,
wrapped in sheets.

I'm the sun
in the clear,blue sky.
I'm t

Let it burn.And so it begins.
Collecting the letters and half-finished poems.
The photographs and papers.
Burning the letters never sent.
Letting the past smolder in the ashes.
Watching the embers curl around the memories of a past lover.
A once future sweetheart.
The flames consume the words that couldn't be finished.
That couldn't reach out.
I collect them all to burn.
To forget.
To erase.
To Move on.

If There Was an UsIf we were to have a romance
they would write books off us,
movies would be be based of us.
but nothing would come close to us
for words wouldn't describe us.

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Do Not Cry

by ~Exchef123, Apr 26, 2010, 5:54:22 AM
Literature / Prose / Non-Fiction / Emotional

Do not stand at my grave and weep:

I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the softly fallen snow;
I am the gentle showers of rain.
I am the field of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the grateful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight.
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom.
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing.
I am in each lovely thing.
So do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there.
I did not die.

Do Not Cryby ~Exchef123

Literature / Prose / Non-Fiction / Emotional

The poem my grandma had on her wall before she passed...

I truly miss her.

Sorry if I ruined you day...

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My poor ol Aunt passed away... On summer break...

Sometimes I wish it would happen to me...

So I don't have to live with the pain...

...Sorry again...

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!darkurin May 21, 2010

This is what they read at my uncle's funeral.

~Exchef123 May 21, 2010

Thats nice.

!darkurin May 21, 2010

yeah I know.He was only fifty-one when he died and worst of all is how and where he died.He died of a heart attack in his classroom in front of his best friend and there was a doctor just down the hall.

~Exchef123 May 21, 2010

...sucks...

!darkurin May 21, 2010

yeah but we are trying to get by without him.

~YAMS13 May 10, 2010

that a nice poem SY man

~Exchef123 May 10, 2010

thanks

~YAMS13 May 10, 2010

np man get well soon XDDD

~UrticaDioica Apr 26, 2010

my, this is beautiful, it made me all choked up and teary

~Exchef123 Apr 27, 2010

Thanks

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